10 Resolutions for Mental Health

이전에 쓰던 홈에 가서 뭐 좀 찾다가 뒤로는 더 많이 헤쳐보지 않고 누군지 아리송하지만 여하튼 보니깐 좋은 사진 석 장과, Clyde Kilby라는 분이 남기셨던 10 Resolutions for Mental Health를  Desiring God 에서 그대로 옮겼던 기록만 들고 우당탕 나왔다.  

1. At least once every day I shall look steadily up at the sky and remember that I, a consciousness with a conscience, am on a planet traveling in space with wonderfully mysterious things above and about me.

2. Instead of the accustomed idea of a mindless and endless evolutionary change to which we can neither  add nor subtract, I shall suppose the universe guided by an Intelligence which, as Aristotle said of Greek drama, requires a beginning, a middle, and an end. I think this will save me from the cynicism expressed by Bertrand Russell before his death when he said: "There is darkness without, and when I die there will be darkness within. There is no splendor, no vastness anywhere, only triviality for a moment and then nothing."

3. I shall not fall into the falsehood that this day, or any day, is merely another ambiguous and plodding twenty-four hours, but rather a unique event, filled, if I so wish, with worthy potentialities. I shall not be fool enough to suppose that trouble and pain are wholly evil parentheses in my existence, but just as likely ladders to be climbed toward moral and spiritual manhood.

4. I shall not turn my life into a thin, straight line which prefers abstractions to reality. I shall know what I am doing when I abstract, which of course I shall often have to do.

5. I shall not demean my own uniqueness by envy of others. I shall stop boring into myself to discover what psychological or social categories I might belong to. Mostly I shall simply forget about myself and do my work.

6. I shall open my eyes and ears. Once every day I shall simply stare at a tree, a flower, a cloud, or a person. I shall not then be concerned at all to ask what they are but simply be glad that they are. I shall joyfully allow them the mystery of what Lewis calls their "divine, magical, terrifying and ecstatic" existence.

7. I shall sometimes look back at the freshness of vision I had in childhood and try, at least for a little while, to be, in the words of Lewis Carroll, the "child of the pure unclouded brow, and dreaming eyes of wonder."

8. I shall follow Darwin's advice and turn frequently to imaginative things such as good literature and good music, preferably, as Lewis suggests, an old book and timeless music.

9. I shall not allow the devilish onrush of this century to usurp all my energies but will instead, as Charles Williams suggested, "fulfill the moment as the moment." I shall try to live well just now because the only time that exists is now.

10. Even if I turn out to be wrong, I shall bet my life on the assumption that this world is not idiotic, neither run by an absentee landlord, but that today, this very day, some stroke is being added to the cosmic canvas that in due course I shall understand with joy as a stroke made by the architect who calls himself Alpha and Omega.

... 무엇보다 정신건강을 위해 사랑을 해야겠으나 본인에게는 그것이야말로 가장 어려운 과업이다. 오늘 목사님의 설교는 영원한 삶과 시간에 구속받지 않는 관점을 의식하면서 사는 개념을 상기시켜주신 한편, 위대한 사랑에 도전하라는 메시지로 본인에게 해석되어 들렸으나, 이것 참. '도전'이라는 단어 선택에 개인의 취향이나 운운하며 제법 그럴듯하게 슥슥 변명을 만들어 놓고 계속 꿈지럭꿈지럭하겠다는 듯한 이 밉상.